Day 2- on the patch

Mostly just a vent but any helpful tips tricks and personal experiences are welcome 💕

I quit cold turkey back in December 24 with the help of Alan Carr book, and a youtuber Addiction Mindset. I was completely cigarette free and NRT free until a sent slip which sent me into regular smoking, bumming cigarettes, buying black and milds. Hit an emotional breaking point and admitted this time I would need some help with the cravings. I'm on Step Two (14mg) on the patch and probably the most hopeful I've been, even more so than when I quit cold turkey. There's still a nagging feeling that I'm cheating and I know NRT is not free from the "nicotine monster". But I'm not gagging and crying when I'm inhaling cigarettes which feels better. I can't seem to break the mindset that I'll lose relationships I wasn't ready to. I think thats why I slipped last time. Hopefully weaning myself off with the patch I'll be able to address this nagging feeling in therapy, work on coping mechanisms, and keep myself in a better mindset than my last attempt.

Day 2 smoke free, can't wait to be nicotine free.