I really just want a fucking cigarette right now.

Nothing super major or eventful is happening in my life other than COVID-19 cancelling all my plans for the next two months, but all the little things are just snowballing. I went out drinking last night and I was surrounded by smokers. About half the time all I wanted to was to ask someone for a cigarette. Now that I sit on my porch looking at my buddies ash tray, the internal struggle is getting a little too much to bear. I'm mainly looking for encouraging words. I don't think I will cave, but sometimes its nice to have a little help.