I’m 31 now, I dabbled with cigarettes from the age of about 14 but from the age of 18 I’ve smoked about a pack a day

There’s nothing that scares me about smoking. I’ve seen all the stats, all the gory images of smokers lungs but none of it does anything to me. I can afford to buy a pack a day and my personal and professional life is stressful. These are the main justifications I use to continue smoking. Truth be told, I absolutely hate the fact that I’m a smoker. It controls so many parts of my life. I refuse long distance travel because i won’t be able to smoke, it smells so bad, and I don’t like being looked down upon by other people because of my addiction. I’ve thought of quitting many times before but this is my first real attempt. I’ve done all the research and although nicotine replacement medications or substitutes are appealing, I don’t want to be dependent on something else so I’ve decided to quit cold turkey. I’m home completely alone for the next 5 days so I don’t care if I get physically sick from the withdrawals or irrationally moody or anything in the first few days. I need to stop smoking! I’ve got a whole bunch of healthy (and some not so healthy) snacks and stuff to distract me from the physical withdrawals but the psychological withdrawals are what I’m afraid of. Tomorrow is my quit day. I’m absolutely terrified

Edit: I did it! I put out that last cigarette and I truly believe that I’ve kicked it! I’m sitting at 10 hours without a cigarette right now, craving one like crazy and I know it’ll get worse before it gets better but I really believe that I will never smoke again. The physical withdrawals are going to be challenging, I know, but having read Allen Carr’s book from start to finish in the last 24hrs… there is absolutely no reason to smoke... the illusion of smoking is broken and I will never ever smoke another cigarette