Why did my new therapist ask if I felt my emotions?
TLDR I recently met with a new therapist after roughly a year of therapy, and towards the end they asked if I felt my emotions. WHY???????
I (20 f) recently had my first therapy session since May of last year. I have been diagnosed with ADHD and GAD, and I DID think my depression kicked the bucket but apparently it's still alive and semi-thriving.
I tend to joke a lot about my mental health and experiences, and my voice (to me, at least) sounds insincere all the time. I also intellectualize my emotions and experiences a lot. I told my new therapist all of this.
The thing is, towards the end of my session, they asked me if I felt emotions. Not WHERE I feel them or how intense they were, just if I felt them at all. I told them that I do, it's just they're usually dull or negative or both. I don't always express my emotions, but I definitely feel them.
But now for some unknown reason (it's the anxiety) I'm terrified of what that question was aimed at finding out. Do they think I'm a sociopath? That there's something deeper wrong with me? That I feel nothing? And I also can't stop thinking about whether or not I'm pretending to have emotions. It's kinda funny cause it's so intense that my brain is like "this is an emotion! You feel them!" While at the same time my cognitive dissonance is gaslighting me with 'a. Fear is physiological and b. You're pretending to be scared'. I'm fairly certain that's not correct but for peace of mind, WHY DID THEY ASK THAT??????
I'm planning on talking to them about it next week but I'm so anxious it's hard to do anything right now. So any insight on why they asked that would be greatly appreciated.