They say therapy works for everyone...

...but I don’t think so. I’m a married, employed father of two fantastic kids. And I’ve struggled with major, persistent cyclical depression for more than 30 years. I’ve been on many, many different meds and combinations, and have seen scores of therapists, counselors, doctors, psychologists and psychiatrists since I was a kid. I’m not in a place where I’m suicidal, but I am absolutely-worn exhausted down from carrying around all this sadness and hopelessness, and am sick of pretending all the time.

What does this community suggest? I’ve had multi-year therapy sessions that do nothing but drain my bank account, and I’ve been told that I, personally, have driven two different people out of the therapy profession because my problems proved too difficult to solve. I’ve had doctors write and publish white papers and even PhD thesis/dissertations on how “interesting” I am, but nothing ever helped me.

I’m at the end of my rope, I’m broke, my oldest kid starts college in the fall, and I need to make a positive change.

What would this community suggest? What can I try that I haven’t done several times before? If I did find something new, how do people afford it?

I’m honestly looking for ideas, and would appreciate any suggestions.