Emotional Rollercoaster

How has everyone dealt with the emotions that run wild leading up to and I'm assuming after transplant? I had my final preop appointment at my center yesterday. Met my whole team, signed the paperwork, did my labs, and am now prepping myself for my scheduled date of October 20th for a 6 person kidney swap. My sister is my donor on my behalf.

What I didn't expect was to be an emotional wreck after signing the paper my surgeon gave me allowing him to do the surgery. After he left the room I actually cried for the first time in years. Then again when I got home and was by myself driving home. I just started bawling. But these weren't sadness tears. I guess just an overwhelming amount of emotions hitting me all at once. I looked at the top of /r/all yesterday and that put me into tears. I've been pretty numb the entire process from being told I need Dialysis to now. And it kinda like all flooded in at once. I am going to therapy weekly but I'm curious to know how everyone here deals with it.

Edit: donor came down with covid surgery delayed to November. 🤷‍♂️