Everyday I wake up is an existential nightmare

Everyday I wake up, I'm immediately hit with the realization of who I am and how ugly I am, how I'll never look normal or attractive to other people and I hate it. Even when I go to bed having had a good day, I wake up the next morning and the cycle continues. Having to go to work with my coworkers who are all around my age and super attractive makes me feel so alone. They have so many conversations about things I'll never be able to experience, and even try to include me in the conversation not knowing how much I'm dying on the inside.

I hate this shit.