I don’t want to exist.

I keep failing. No one cares. I’m so alone.

I have tried to make online friends. I have irl friends. No one messages me first. I have to message them first. They’re either married or just busy. No one cares. I have to give them space because they’re so busy. No one cares. I keep failing. I’m so behind on work. My place is a mess. I have to clean. I don’t have the strength to do so. No one cares.

People are going to read this just to be nice and say something like “I care.” No you don’t. You just want me to say thanks so you can move on.

I don’t want to be negative. It’s just how I feel.