Anyone else absolutely hate going to bed?

I stay up late because going to bed is so damn hard! I’m only 23 days in, but I’m worried it won’t get better. My doctor gave me 20 sleeping pills, and I left a message for a refill, but haven’t heard back. My strategy is to take the pill and wait till I’m almost passed out to lay down.

I’m going to start exercising again and going to an in person support group, but this sucks so bad!!!