Chapter 2

(Well, technically this is chapter 3, but my ex husband was an abusive POS so I don't count him).

Tomorrow makes 8 weeks since my fiance died. Tomorrow makes 6 days since my chapter 2 asked be to be his girlfriend. And you know what? I don't feel bad about it being "too soon". If you go read my post history, you'll see the story about how I had a visit from my late fiance and how it was the most spiritual experience I've ever had and how it brought me an immeasurable sense of peace. A peace that I've never felt before. I believe that my LF brought my chapter 2 into my life because the only reason he reached out to me was because he was concerned about me because I was so sad about LF. It naturally evolved from there. He has never pressured me. He enjoys hearing me talk about my LF and even asks questions. He knows that my LF will always have a place in my heart because it's not like we broke up, he died. I have also come to the conclusion that my LF was not my happily ever after like I thought. I think he was a season of my life. My ex husband was the season that taught me how I'm NOT supposed to be treated. My LF was the season that taught me how I AM supposed to be treated, he taught me how I'm supposed to be loved. My LF's sister and dad, while sad , we're not surprised at his death. He was an alcoholic who was not going to stop drinking and I think they always thought this was how his journey was going to end and I'm starting to understand as well.

I loved my LF and there is a part of my heart that will always belong to him. But I'm excited to see where this new journey takes me.