Dropped the youngest off at uni

Today was a day where my husbands absence was felt. I flew 10 hours to the east coast to drop the baby off at university. My grief feels bigger on milestones. I’m so proud of my son for being able to keep going I. His last year of high school and get into his first choice school despite losing his step dad in February. I’m a little scared to go home and feel just how empty that house is. I am having big feelings, oddly what’s making it feel somewhat manageable is hanging out with my ex-husband and his spouse .