To those who have a friend with benefits...

Hi. If you have a friend with benefits after the passing of your person -

How were your emotions the first few times? Crying afterwards? Feeling like you've betrayed your person? Relief at physical touch? How much time had passed between becoming widowed till you got a friend?

It's been almost 6 months since he passed, probably closer to 7 months since I last had sex. I've got "personal appliances" that have been getting me through, however a week ago I ran into a platonic old friend and it's bought up some strong desires. I might be getting ahead of myself here, and have no idea if he would be interested, but what are your experiences? Do you have any advice?

Thank you