I'm having a tough time today...

Married only 3 months ago, she gave me the gift of forever. Only she had no idea how short that would be. Today is one of my difficult days.

Yesterday I started going through some of her things that I thought would be less emotional to deal with, but I came across the card she gave me at our ceremony (Obviously edited). We were friends for almost 2 decades. After my divorce, I swore that I wasn't going to let myself get hurt again, and closed off. But somehow, her light shined through my walls. I made myself vulnerable for her, and she showed me what true love really could be. And now she's gone, a hole burned through my heart to depths I couldn't imagine.

I'm alone, hurt, scared, and angry. People around me give the standard platitudes, but they just can't understand how much this HURTS. I don't know what to do; it feels like my life is over.