Empty nest -- college years

Not sure where else to post this.

My wife passed almost 9 years ago when our children were 12 & 16. Life moves on. My son has been on his own for a couple of years and after two years of CC my daighter left for a 4 year. I was alone for the first time in my life. And adjusted. Then they came home for the holidays.

At first I got annoyed they were messing with my space. Getting on line for doing laundry again. Hot water running out b4 I wanted to take a shower again. Having to make multiple weekly trips to the supermarket again. The usual when you have teens.

The eldest left for his city just after New Years and I was sad. I dropped my youngest off at college this morning. And now it is just me and the pets. Readusting to just me sucks. Not sure who I am missing more this evening, them or my wife.

In a perfect world we would be sitting in front of our fireplace, just chilling this evening waiting for the forecasted snow to fall (lol). Instead I am on the couch with our dog trying to readjust to just me until spring break in two months when it becomes rinse and repeat, lol.

End rant. Just looking for those of you in my shoes or where I should be posting this instead.