Wedding rings

NOTE: I know that wedding rings and what to do/not do are highly, highly personal journeys. I’m just sharing mine. Not judging anyone else’s.

It’s early for me, my husband died just 23 days ago. Some days that seems like a lifetime ago, sometimes it all seems like one very very long day. All the days it hurts so bad. Ugh.

At first, I needed- needed- to have both my ring set and his ring on my wedding ring finger. I was obsessive about it, even though my wedding set was falling off because it was getting too big and his was certainly too big for me and I even lost it once that first week. But—- I took his ring off my finger last week.

And then just my wedding set did not feel right. At ALL. I certainly do not feel any less married. But there is one half of my marriage that isn’t here anymore. It’s not the same. My wedding rings were “before” in my timeline where everything is divided into whether it was before or after he died. It felt so wrong to me.

So I bought a new ring for my wedding ring finger. One that has such a unique “us” look that my son asked me if I had it custom made (I didn’t ). And I know my husband would love it and approve. And it made my chest hurt a little- okay a LOT- but I put my rings with his in the safe.

I may change my mind tomorrow and yank this off and wear my wedding set again but for now I think I’m good with it.