Finished my first draft, terrified no one will find it interesting.
Starting off, I do not find value in most the things I do. I've wrestled with that all my life in terms of art and creativity, and this is one of the most frightening of all.
*To waste less time, this overall point of this is to ask how anyone out there handles the sense of self doubt, imposter syndrome, and dread which comes with trying to complete a project and have others read it.*
In recent months, I lost my job. The market being so terrible, I decided to try to write while job hunting to pass time and distract myself from the terrible way things ended at the job. 49800 words later, I have finished a draft in the span of about 5 and a half weeks.
With this comes all the questions friends have for me and I do not have answers for. Will I publish? If so, how? What's my 'goal'?
I am stressed as to weather or not anyone will read it, or want to read it, or even enjoy the damn thing. I find myself paralyzed at the idea someone might pick it up and feel I've wasted their time. I have nightmares that somewhere I left in a plot hole, or otherwise useless story beats.
Worse yet, I am afraid that due to the political elements regarding the period it takes place (1947), that it might offend people less historically savvy... or that I myself wasn't savvy enough to even be writing it in the first place.
*For anyone wondering about content of the story, it is a Lovecraftian detective noir, set in '47 after WW2. The main character gets sucked into a case regarding a missing person, who's lineage is traced back to Innsmouth.*
Edit: I do want to say thank you to everyone that did reply here. It meant a lot, and I took a lot of it to heart.