Sorry for confusing description...Looking to write again.

Since I never was the type of writer who liked to write only for himself and for motivation I always needed someone who would care enough to read it. Problem is...English isn't my native language, mine is actually czech but I'm still trying to write in english - to be able to publish here - but I am afraid it might contain many mistakes and etc. I want to post my things here, but there's yet another thing - I write novels, whole books, not short stories and I also would love to have some beta readers because I can't just move out whenever it is my self-perfectionism where I always re-work everything (story-wise, character-wise, grammar-wise) and ended up with nothing. Would there be people who would like to read something with shabby english? I just don't know. Fighting with 3-4 years writing block and I can't do anything with it except than trying to write again.