Finally had a positive therapy experience, raised to 100mg, and feeling hopeful - hang in there!

I am taking 100mg for the first time today. I'm really excited. I've been on 50mg for about 6 weeks. I actually do feel loads better. My medical team and I determined it's about a 50% improvement, which I'm told is very good for 50mg.

However, I has an appt with my PCP and he felt like that was enough improvement and there was no reason to increase. I told him about half of my days are still very hard and there are plenty of days I can't get myself out of bed. He's has zero bedside manner and made a glib comment about how he "has those mornings too." I like him for other reasons, but that wasn't a great response.

Well... I had my first appt with behavioral health yesterday. I've had really bad therapy experiences in the past and was DREADING this. Folks... She was AMAZING. She listened and learned about me quickly, validated my concerns and hesitations, and was able to make recommendations right away. And she strongly agreed that after 6 weeks, while my progress is good, we should definitely try 100mg. My PCP listened to her recommendation with no issue :)

My new psychology will also consider adding Wellbutrin for me if my energy and motivation don't improve on the new dosage. She is going to advise against tapering me off in 6 months (which my PCP wanted to try and I was very nervous about).

I'm really rambling, but I'm just so happy and relieved and I finally feel hope for my life. I've had depression since I was 10. Anxiety my entire life (since early childhood). I'm 28. I finally feel like life might be good someday.

My first three weeks were HELL. Almost every symptom you can list I had. Had my first panic attack in about a year, major major mood swings, nausea, headaches, jaw clenching, sleep issues, FATIGUE. So much crying out if exhaustion, frustration, and fear.

It was so worth it. Even through the awful I got little glimpses of light. And now I'm having more good days than bad. Even the bad days are more like bad evenings instead of entire days.

Please hang in there. Give it a shot. Work with your doctors and advocate for yourself. I never thought I would be able to say this but... It DOES get better.